When
telling people about my art, showing them my works, I often hear that line. It’s one I used myself. But it is merely
something we tell ourselves that has no real truth to it. If you can apply paint to a surface, you’re painting, and
that’s good enough as far as I am concerned. That’s all I do.
I spent
my early life wishing I could paint but not even daring to think I had the right to pick up a brush. I finally had a go. Spring
2007, I felt an urge to go out and buy an easel and paints, not really knowing what I was going to paint. Then I was inspired
by feeling, something of which I have in abundance. Finding myself entering into a moment of panic, an image came to mind
and immediately I let it out onto paper. That was the beginning of using painting as an outlet for my emotion.
As someone with Asperger’s, I can find communicating awkward. It can be hard to find the words to express
what I’m feeling. It can be hard for other people to understand what I’m getting at. Such misunderstandings leave
me frustrated and sometimes anxious. Discovering art has given me an alternative and more effective and satisfying way to
say what’s on my mind. Honestly and sometimes bluntly.
Taking acrylics, with their
vivid colours, and painting shapes and scenes to make bold (and usually dark) statements of feeling has been a really powerful
creative outpouring. Thus I feel I've found my footing in emotional, conceptual expression.